To be honest, it was about time he was banned. He's incredibly rude.
Sometimes, but not enough to get banned.
Trust me, it really is enough for a ban. Maybe he wasn't openly rude in the forum, because he wanted to be seen as cool by everyone else, but all the times on tinychat. Seriously.
Keep this in mind, guys. People will appear one way if all you see of them is that, but often you are missing things.
well as much as you guys are fawning over how untouchable and perfect he was the fact remains he is gone and I highly doubt he will be in any mood to return even if he was unbanned.
Hello guys. I wasn’t planning to post on here or ever coming back, but I do feel that I need to make a last post, especially after I received an anonymous e-mail attacking me and saying awful things. First of all, I want to clarify things, as I feel that there are a lot of people that I consider a lot. I wasn’t “banned”, as some of the users here have been assuming or telling others. I was, indeed, demod – apparently because of flagging disagree on Activity (and I thought it was fair – but interesting - that I was punished for that since I’m probably the guy with the higher number of disagrees, Troll, Spam and Abuse in here and ALL, no exceptions, of my activity posts are flagged. Some of them with 10 clicks). Still, I apologize for my attitude and I’m not proud of it. So yes, I wasn’t banned, but I was demod. And since that happened, it made me question my position on HPF.
You have no idea how much it hurts to leave this place. I’ve been here for three years now. This place saved me from some really dark moments in my life and I thank you for that. And this is one of the reasons, besides the awful e-mail I have received, why I’m writing this also. I don’t think it is fair to not give a proper explanation to the people – I’m not sure if anyone do, actually but I would assume that at least 2 or 3 of us would – that care about me. I feel that the forum has been affecting me emotionally lately. I know that I have a strong personality, that I can be pretentious, arrogant, strong headed, stubborn. But well… I guess I am a human being also. It was never my intention to be disrespectful and offend anyone in here. And I apologize from deep down of my heart if I did. My biggest problem here has been the negativity. I’ve became someone that the majority dislikes and I started to question if I should stay in a place where people don’t want me. Why should I be here if people hate me? What type of benefit will that bring to my life? It was just hurting more and more to see and notice how people has been seeing me. There is that phrase that says "If you can't stand the heat, get out of the kitchen". I’m not selfish enough to say that. If I’m not welcomed or desired here, I will leave. It was simple as that. I do think that I contributed a lot to the forum. I was always taking care of the dashboard, I always tried to come up with new ideas to keep the forum alive. New series, new threads, new discussions. And I think that deep down you guys acknowledge that. Still, I feel that it wasn’t being appreciated anymore. My presence itself was being treated as inconvenient. So I had to look at myself and be mature to decide “I have to leave, move on”.
I think I could never be able to stop accessing the website for my own will. I don’t think I would be able to do that. My original idea was to delete my account permanently. But… I remembered that if that happened, most of the content I posted would probably be gone (even if I wasn’t sure of it) and well.. I’ve got a couple of threads out there so that wouldn’t be fair. So I immediately thought “If I ask for a moderator to ban me, I won’t be able to access the forum anymore”. And that sounded good to me. Trust me, I don’t want attention or anything… I just want to leave a place that is affecting me emotionally. That’s all. Anyways, I barely have time to access the forum anymore (as some might have noticed). I’m always busy with work now and for you guys to have an idea, I spent my whole lunch time writing this. So yes. I approached Sami, one of my best friends here, and asked him. He disagreed immediately, but soon he understood. Specially after seeing and telling me some of the comments from people here. I have talked to Rich also, who also seemed to understand me. And I thank you guys so much. I haven’t read the whole thread, because I know that there are probably a lot of hate comments, name calling, cursing. I passed through the posts quickly, but it broke my heart to see people that I considered saying things. Especially when I’m away and I can’t defend or stand up for myself. I guess it is easier that way, isn’t it? I just wished this people would have messaged me and talked to me before. But… it is in the past. So yeah… In the end, it is just a confirmation of why I should leave and move on. I’m not liked here. And it time to stop torturing me and force people to like me. I think I just need to be myself.
As I said, I know I’m arrogant, pretentious, stubborn and I can be an ass sometimes… But, deep down, I still have a heart. I have emotions. I think most of the people here don’t know me that well. Sometimes we just try to create this shield to hide who we really are. And honestly? While I might look tough on the outside, on the inside is different. Once again, I want to apologize for any inconvenience and distress I have caused. I wasn’t banned because I disrespected he forum rules or anything. It was entirely my choice. And no. I do not intend to come back anytime soon. I want to apologize for the people who cares about me. I’m so sorry, guys. I just need to eliminate any type of negativity from my life now. Being away from your family, trying to start your life from sketch on a different country is already tough enough. Also, I apologize for unfriending everybody on Facebook. It is not personal. It is just a way of move on and try to forget about this place easily. Still, I will keep you in my head forever… For the person that wrote the hideous e-mail: I feel sorry for you. If you need to hide yourself and write an anonymous e-mail to someone you probably don’t have a lot to do with your life. But I don't mind. You don't know me in person so you can make the assumptions you want. And in the end, I don't feel mad or angry. I just feel sorry and I hope you find the light to guide you to less hate and more love.
I just wanted to thank you all of the people that made part of my life these past three years. You guys brought me hope when I couldn't find it, fun when I thought it didn't exist. Rich, Sam, Adri, Jason, Brett, Lukey, Joli, Tiina, Ash, Jeff-o, Ry, Liz, Cathy, Chester, Yony, Matt (you will go far buddy. keep following your dreams and never give up on movies and filmmaking. I can sense something on you and I think you will have a bright future), Ernie... You guys are amazing. Sorry if I ever offended or disrespected you. It was never my intention. I'm leaving, but I will always remember and be grateful for the amazing times. I wish the best for all of you and this is indeed my farewell. I don't intend to access the forum anymore. And you don't need to reply as, I apologize, I won't be able to read. I just wanted you to know.
Thank you.
P.S.: If you like discussing movies, try visiting the Awards Watch forums. Great place for discussions.
Don't know if anyone else will reply to your post, but I believe in second chances. Your apology seems sincere and honest, and that's what counts. I think people were only bothered that you would niptick them all the time. After all, nobody likes to be put down. However, other times you're a pretty chill person. I also have noticed how inactive/dead the forum has been since you were demoded. I personally don't mind that you're here as long as you're respectful to others.
Rick, I'm honestly glad you came back and posted this it's nice to see. I got your snapchats earlier and sent a rude one back thinking you were angry but I'm glad you cleared the air and sorry about the sassy one I sent back. It's nice to have closure and I for one say best of luck with all your endeavors in life.
As for the email - if it is overly nasty you can report it and there are easy ways to track where such things come from. It's one thing to air dirty laundry to people privately...however doing it through anonymous email is pretty pathetic. Whoever went that route should have had the balls to just say it. Just my thoughts on that.
Rick, your post was incredibly heartfelt. I respect your decision to leave and it's great that you chose to come back to make sure you left on right terms. I must admit I was upset when I saw that you had unfriended me on Facebook, but now I can understand why you would. I hope we can still be in touch through the future and I wish you the best. You will be missed.
Ah well, I wasn't mentioned in his shout-outs at the end so I don't think he thinks too kindly of me at the current moment, but we had our ups and downs. I'm not on the forum enough to really even understand how I feel about him leaving, but he has been here a long time. His leaving will be...for lack of a better term, "culturally significant" to the forum. I wish him well in future endeavors, anyhow, better to part ways with respect for each other than childish resentment.
Ah well, I wasn't mentioned in his shout-outs at the end so I don't think he thinks too kindly of me at the current moment, but we had our ups and downs. I'm not on the forum enough to really even understand how I feel about him leaving, but he has been here a long time. His leaving will be...for lack of a better term, "culturally significant" to the forum. I wish him well in future endeavors, anyhow, better to part ways with respect for each other than childish resentment.
Now I feel bad, I called him a pretentious douche. Rick came back and gave a heartfelt apology. I tip my hat to you, Henrick. I wish you well. Maybe you and I will bump into each other one day on a red carpet.
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Now I feel bad, I called him a pretentious douche. Rick came back and gave a heartfelt apology. I tip my hat to you, Henrick. I wish you well. Maybe you and I will bump into each other one day on a red carpet.
Ah well, I wasn't mentioned in his shout-outs at the end so I don't think he thinks too kindly of me at the current moment, but we had our ups and downs. I'm not on the forum enough to really even understand how I feel about him leaving, but he has been here a long time. His leaving will be...for lack of a better term, "culturally significant" to the forum. I wish him well in future endeavors, anyhow, better to part ways with respect for each other than childish resentment.
Wasn't either, probably because last convo we had forever ago was a giant argument on some thread idr.
Sad to see him go because he was part of the forum's good times. If you're still reading the comments Rick, best of luck!
Ah well, I wasn't mentioned in his shout-outs at the end so I don't think he thinks too kindly of me at the current moment, but we had our ups and downs. I'm not on the forum enough to really even understand how I feel about him leaving, but he has been here a long time. His leaving will be...for lack of a better term, "culturally significant" to the forum. I wish him well in future endeavors, anyhow, better to part ways with respect for each other than childish resentment.
You know, incredibly, I think the same of almost everything you wrote. I'm kinda new to this forum, so I don't understand much too about him leaving, but even with the zillion arguements we had, we had some pretty nice discussions too, and he was one of the first that welcomed me here, and I'm grateful for that.
Anyway, as a fellow brazilian (and I'm kinda baffled how there are three brazilians here, aspiring/pursuing filmmaking career), I extend a nice farewell to you, dude. I respect your decision to come here and clean everything up, to go out in good terms, and wish you good luck out there. As you've described, you're making the right decision, never insist on something that isn't good to you, or makes you feel bad.
And... Who knows? Maybe one day, in a distant future, we'll bump on each other.
Quaalude fight: because drunk fight is too mainstream.
I know I'll definitely miss Henrick. He was one of the nicest and most welcoming members when i first joined, and i appreciate that. I think he added a lot to the forum, and I'm sorry to see him go, but i respect his decision to do what's best for himself.
"The sun persists in rising so I make myself stand."
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He was a true KNIGHT... No matter what happened, he would always make his way back home.
Here's to You, Henrick the Knight.
You have no idea how much it hurts to leave this place. I’ve been here for three years now. This place saved me from some really dark moments in my life and I thank you for that. And this is one of the reasons, besides the awful e-mail I have received, why I’m writing this also. I don’t think it is fair to not give a proper explanation to the people – I’m not sure if anyone do, actually but I would assume that at least 2 or 3 of us would – that care about me. I feel that the forum has been affecting me emotionally lately. I know that I have a strong personality, that I can be pretentious, arrogant, strong headed, stubborn. But well… I guess I am a human being also. It was never my intention to be disrespectful and offend anyone in here. And I apologize from deep down of my heart if I did. My biggest problem here has been the negativity. I’ve became someone that the majority dislikes and I started to question if I should stay in a place where people don’t want me. Why should I be here if people hate me? What type of benefit will that bring to my life? It was just hurting more and more to see and notice how people has been seeing me. There is that phrase that says "If you can't stand the heat, get out of the kitchen". I’m not selfish enough to say that. If I’m not welcomed or desired here, I will leave. It was simple as that. I do think that I contributed a lot to the forum. I was always taking care of the dashboard, I always tried to come up with new ideas to keep the forum alive. New series, new threads, new discussions. And I think that deep down you guys acknowledge that. Still, I feel that it wasn’t being appreciated anymore. My presence itself was being treated as inconvenient. So I had to look at myself and be mature to decide “I have to leave, move on”.
I think I could never be able to stop accessing the website for my own will. I don’t think I would be able to do that. My original idea was to delete my account permanently. But… I remembered that if that happened, most of the content I posted would probably be gone (even if I wasn’t sure of it) and well.. I’ve got a couple of threads out there so that wouldn’t be fair. So I immediately thought “If I ask for a moderator to ban me, I won’t be able to access the forum anymore”. And that sounded good to me. Trust me, I don’t want attention or anything… I just want to leave a place that is affecting me emotionally. That’s all. Anyways, I barely have time to access the forum anymore (as some might have noticed). I’m always busy with work now and for you guys to have an idea, I spent my whole lunch time writing this. So yes. I approached Sami, one of my best friends here, and asked him. He disagreed immediately, but soon he understood. Specially after seeing and telling me some of the comments from people here. I have talked to Rich also, who also seemed to understand me. And I thank you guys so much.
I haven’t read the whole thread, because I know that there are probably a lot of hate comments, name calling, cursing. I passed through the posts quickly, but it broke my heart to see people that I considered saying things. Especially when I’m away and I can’t defend or stand up for myself. I guess it is easier that way, isn’t it? I just wished this people would have messaged me and talked to me before. But… it is in the past. So yeah… In the end, it is just a confirmation of why I should leave and move on. I’m not liked here. And it time to stop torturing me and force people to like me. I think I just need to be myself.
As I said, I know I’m arrogant, pretentious, stubborn and I can be an ass sometimes… But, deep down, I still have a heart. I have emotions. I think most of the people here don’t know me that well. Sometimes we just try to create this shield to hide who we really are. And honestly? While I might look tough on the outside, on the inside is different. Once again, I want to apologize for any inconvenience and distress I have caused. I wasn’t banned because I disrespected he forum rules or anything. It was entirely my choice. And no. I do not intend to come back anytime soon. I want to apologize for the people who cares about me. I’m so sorry, guys. I just need to eliminate any type of negativity from my life now. Being away from your family, trying to start your life from sketch on a different country is already tough enough. Also, I apologize for unfriending everybody on Facebook. It is not personal. It is just a way of move on and try to forget about this place easily. Still, I will keep you in my head forever… For the person that wrote the hideous e-mail: I feel sorry for you. If you need to hide yourself and write an anonymous e-mail to someone you probably don’t have a lot to do with your life. But I don't mind. You don't know me in person so you can make the assumptions you want. And in the end, I don't feel mad or angry. I just feel sorry and I hope you find the light to guide you to less hate and more love.
I just wanted to thank you all of the people that made part of my life these past three years. You guys brought me hope when I couldn't find it, fun when I thought it didn't exist. Rich, Sam, Adri, Jason, Brett, Lukey, Joli, Tiina, Ash, Jeff-o, Ry, Liz, Cathy, Chester, Yony, Matt (you will go far buddy. keep following your dreams and never give up on movies and filmmaking. I can sense something on you and I think you will have a bright future), Ernie... You guys are amazing. Sorry if I ever offended or disrespected you. It was never my intention. I'm leaving, but I will always remember and be grateful for the amazing times. I wish the best for all of you and this is indeed my farewell. I don't intend to access the forum anymore. And you don't need to reply as, I apologize, I won't be able to read. I just wanted you to know.
Thank you.
P.S.: If you like discussing movies, try visiting the Awards Watch forums. Great place for discussions.
As for the email - if it is overly nasty you can report it and there are easy ways to track where such things come from. It's one thing to air dirty laundry to people privately...however doing it through anonymous email is pretty pathetic. Whoever went that route should have had the balls to just say it. Just my thoughts on that.
Sad to see you go, but I wish you well.
Sad to see him go because he was part of the forum's good times. If you're still reading the comments Rick, best of luck!
Anyway, as a fellow brazilian (and I'm kinda baffled how there are three brazilians here, aspiring/pursuing filmmaking career), I extend a nice farewell to you, dude. I respect your decision to come here and clean everything up, to go out in good terms, and wish you good luck out there. As you've described, you're making the right decision, never insist on something that isn't good to you, or makes you feel bad.
And... Who knows? Maybe one day, in a distant future, we'll bump on each other.
Quaalude fight: because drunk fight is too mainstream.
"The sun persists in rising so I make myself stand."